Yesterday my faithful and trusted computer just quit. Not exactly as I have seen computers quit before; it simply refused to connect with the internet, no matter how much I pleaded with, or cajoled it. Nothing would compel it to speak to WiFi, and it would not put anything on the screen, even though the pages I looked for supposedly were open. Just a big, white screen, and nothing more.
I realize now it had been sending signals time was getting short, but sometimes I do not want to believe the worst. It was six years old, and had been treated with kid gloves from day one. I guess I thought if I maintained it well it would go on working perfectly forever.
Not this time. Its lid is down, and I have decided not to go back and try just one more time to see if it would come back to life. If nothing else, the fifty or sixty times I tried yesterday convinced me it was of no use to keep hoping. I never give up easily, and I really did not want to throw in the towel; but there does come that point when one has to say, “Well, all right then”.
A new computer is ordered and on its way here. I am happy it will arrive by next Wednesday, and in the meantime, I have my iPad on which to continue writing. It certainly is more challenging to use than my old laptop, but the truth is we are so fortunate to have tools in all shapes and sizes to help us get those pesky words from brain to page. It is probably even a good thing that I have to stretch and utilize something outside my comfort zone; keeps me thinking and working harder than normal, and at this stage of the journey, I believe that is recommended.
So once again, time is marching on, and that inevitable thing called change has insinuated itself into my cyber life, wanted or not. I am grateful all will not be lost from the experience, and that I can move forward despite the inconvenience. I am missing my old computer, because it was an integral part of my daily routine for a very long time; however, life lessons continue teaching me things come and go, and acceptance keeps us moving in the right direction.